A Week Of Unfortunate Events.

It all started with plates in the store, where i accidentally broke it due to an accident after one of my seniors said this:

"haiyoooo .. Starbucks Ikano baristas are getting a little bit retarded this time around".

Right after that, a bunch of plates came crashing down. Wonderful.

I burnt my right hand while operating the oven at home. Wonderful.

I turned a little bit impatient due to my sicknesses' condition. Wonderful.

Sorethroat. Wonderful.

Flu; can't taste for shit. Wonderful.

2 wasps attacked me. Ironically, both of them were rather loving. Gave me 2 bloody stings on the neck. One on the left, and one on the right. Wonderful.

Everybody at work thinks it's a lovebite; worse still; a love bite given by an elephant -.-.











I need to learn how to kill.

This Is How It Should Be Done <3

Yum yum yummy.. Got that right, but I'm training on finger strength and playing it clean.. hoho..

Musical Sanctuary.

Is a place where I forget my surrounding emotions.

It's a place where I dwelled in so much, until I was nearly 'one' with music itself through the audible art of others.

I'm still trying to crack the codes of the right notes in songs, that makes it sound powerful and..dramatic.

That's when you throw away whatever you've learnt, and let soul and passion take over, to achieve a different sound.

A different sound ..

I guess I need to be extra aware of the environments that I ponder around, maybe?

I feel Jazz, but I can't bleed Jazz, if you get what I mean ..

And no matter what I do, there's always something inside of me that is still missing. I have no idea what, but ...

....

Oh well, one has to expand his feel and styles through this art.











Hmmm....











Note: I just noticed that there's a series of 3 bars of different polyrhythms during the intro of Learning to Live by Dream Theater..

Myung.

Probably the most quiet member in Dream Theater, but his basslines and tone just blows my mind away..

Why do I feel like learning bass instead of the guitars now?

PS. I managed to learn his tapping bass solo in Metropolis. Hohoho. Just for the heck of it, since it wasn't that tough..

The Night Falls.

As you close your eyes,
Don't let sadness overcome you;
Don't let the shadows consume you;
Let the sun's warmth fill your heart.

As the night gets colder,
Don't let thoughts make you shiver;
Don't let possibilities make you tear;
Let beliefs give you the strength to stand.

As the distance seems further,
Don't forget, we share the same moon;
Don't forget, we share the same skies;
Look up, and I shall look towards your direction.

As you feel insecure,
Don't let fear overcome you;
Don't let loneliness overtake your beliefs;
But feel me, as I shall tuck you to bed at night.












Goodnight, to you.

Survey 250708

1. If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?
Bored/angry/frustrated/ticked off/having thoughts/meditating/curious.
2. Do you still have feelings for your ex?
Nope.
4. Last time you laughed? who made you laugh?
Just a few seconds ago; This survey's missing of number 3.
5. Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
Ooo.. yes. =)
6. Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
Does gifts count?
7. Would you ever date your best friend (of the opposite sex)?
Um. Why not? Hohoho.
8. what's the last mistake you made?
Going back to KL way too early.
9. Do you regret anything from your past?
Nope. Most of you know why as this question is kind of repeated in this blog. hohoho.
10. If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
There're plenty of ways to get revenge.. >=)
11. How do you react when people cry around you?
Awkward.
12. Do you bump into someones arm if you want to hold their hand?
Nope.
13. Last argument?
Probably a few days ago.
14. Are you jealous of this person?
No.
15. Do you know how to belly dance?
.. Dear God, no..
16. What are you listening to?
Dream Theater - As I Am
17. Last beverage?
Teh o' ais limau .. buang limau.hohoho.
18. Last nap?
In the bus just now..lalala.
19. Do you own a planner?
Nope.
20. Favorite months?
No specific favourites..
21. what's going on this weekend?
Work; and some minor plannings for the next trip back to Penang..
22. what song is on your mind just this second?
Dream Theater - Another Day (Acoustic) and John Petrucci's Damage Control..
23. What are you doing this Saturday?
Hmm. What a tough question. Work, maybe?
24. Sweetest thing anyone has ever done for you?
Minor visits to really make my day..
25. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now?
It's hard for me to answer this question. It's related to music, and to the person I'm listening to now.. lol
26. You have plenty of secrets that you share with...?
Not really..
27.Has one of your crushes ever called you self centered before?
Nope..

Home.

Nobody's here. It's just me, and the mysterious couple sleeping-people housemates.

Work commences tomorrow. And what a way to celebrate my homecoming - putting me on a closing shift on a weekend.

I don't care. I'm doing whatever it is required to be done. Hohoho.

I'm still alive and kicking, people. Although I did receive a major headache that connected to my trapezeus (SP?) muscle, but everything's good. Probably the lack of proper food these few days since I was literally rotting at home, and eating air whilst on the bike.

It's back to the daily schedule - minus the classes/college work.

And for the first time in Starbucks Ikano history - I'm working when the sun rises. Hohoho..











This ought to be interesting..











Where for art thou be .. Should I wish for the ability to turn back time?

Thoughts..

Lad, did you know a girl was murdered here?
This fatal tragedy was talked about for years..

There's This Riff..

.. That's constantly revolving around my head, over and over again.

It carries an melodic message, but too bad, I'm not in the mood to answer or decode it at the moment.

It links with the current status of my emotions - which up to this I can't even be bothered about.

While I was out a minute ago, there were several times that I had to do last minute braking, panicing and all that's unimaginable only because I was conscious enough.

I blame it on Malaysian roads and other drivers, anyways. Both the roads and other drivers share one thing in common - they're not properly furnished.

Besides that, I was around Penang. To the places I never went before, and my word, it was beautiful. Just constant speed, no traffic, and no irritating traffic lights.











And now, I'm at a place that many claim that it should be my home. But something's still missing. It feels like an abandoned artifact, filled with souls that carry a story. Probably stories of the past; of how this place was once cheerful.

Of how this place was once filled with noise.

Of how a little boy; who had dreams to build his guitar foundation here.

Looks like there can never be another place to replace this ground. I started off here, and I'm still improving at this area.

It's pretty much amazing how this place inspires me to improve.











Then again, the more I play, surprisingly, the more a part of myself dies. But the more this part of me dies, the better results are achieved.

I am lost.

But it's worth the sacrifice.











Anyways, I can't be bothered, honestly. I must be going out of my mind at the moment.

The Change.

"I noticed a change;
that I've lost the points of being concern..
.. And to be caring."

And I can't agree more.

There's this constant sadness that overcomes the clouds that surrounds me. Where the sun isn't as bright as I thought it would be. Where summer slowly fades, and the autumn comes.

I don't know if the same would affect my current progress at work, because if it does, it's not going to be a benefit towards myself and my partners.

But I've been thinking. What is the point of being around people, and treating them better than a certain benchmark when they're going to walk away either today, or tomorrow?

Why do I always dwell in the past? Where happiness once existed?

Where we knew nothing, but fun and joy.

I don't know about myself; about where I'm going to go, what are the things I'm going to end up doing, the people I'm going to meet, the work I'm going to do, the knowledge I'm going to gain, the change that's going to take part in me to be for the better; or the worse, so on and so forth.

I sense a dark legion behind me, waiting to strike at any moment.

Only by playing the guitar constantly keeps my mind off, and retracts any possible actions.

And burning petrol, of course.

Since I'm leaving Penang tomorrow afternoon, time to go out on another roadtrip. Where to? I don't know. Probably somewhere without traffic lights, presumably.











Then again, it's about time that I stepped out from the past, and prepare for the future.

Play time is over. It's time to embrace the next phrase.

ETA Damansara: 24hours.

Goodbye Penang. You are the place where I cannot call home, anymore.

Welcome to the next stage in this path of knowledge.

I Am Deaf.

And as you can see, the trip was a safe one. I left my house about 10.10pm, since I needed to head off to the bank to get some money, and to the petrol station to fill in some petrol, and get the tyre pressure checked.

Then it was off to the roads! Wheeeee.

The average speed for this trip would be about 85kmph, since this bike never really ran on its high speed for a constant time, so it was kind of..rusty. Even the highest it could constantly go was at 90kmph.

I managed to get to my friend's house, Deborah Wong, and met the parents. First time seeing her younger sister and brother, and the first time meeting up with the dad.

I remember when I attended National Service back in 2006, I met up with Debra and her parents from time to time. During those times, we were somewhat closer.

Hoho.

Switched to her humble little Viva (.. Which I think is a rotten piece of Malaysian junk, like usual, even worse than the cars it was supposed to replace), and drove off to Autocity's McDonalds.

Sat down, chatted for quite a bit, and headed back home at 2am.

I came back, stopped by the Penang bridge and took some pictures.

Now, most importantly, what did I achieve or learnt from this trip?

• I got deaf. Although bikes are small, but they're not entirely silenced. Therefore, listening to a constant dead roar, but going at 80kmph was like driving the Kembara. Sounds like a diesel engine, but going at a super slow speed.
• The weather was awesome. For it being at night, it was a cool ride. Until it reached 2.30am, I had to seriously go to the toilet. Things just gotten colder for me. In the car, it's okay. But on the bike, with the noise, the constant vibration coming from the engine and the carborator, my nuts were jiggling against each other (!!!!!). Not a good sign.
  
• Speed doesn't kill; Crosswinds does.
• Everything was so raw. Including of the lorry that spat out diesel smoke into my face, the horrid salted vegetable chinese soup scent over the Penang bridge, the cow dung scent in Juru area, the wind hitting against me, the small tiny bits of sand that smacked my face after a BMW zoomed past by, and evertying else. All this was fun. It really made the adrenaline going through the veins in my body.

I always had fun while riding the bike. I never once complained about it when I'm on the roads. It's all about fun, and enjoying the trip.

Even though that its maximum speed was 80kmph, it didn't even feel like it at all.

Ooooo, how fun.











And this time, this trip back to Penang was worth it. Why? I managed to learn half of Another Day, and the bike served its purpose.

I am contented.

And if you think if I'm out of my mind just to waste petrol, oh please. Don't even start.

And this roadtrip, fun indeed. hoho. After all, I've got nothing else better to do. Should I head out for supper now? Wheeee.

Roadtrip!

This time, I can't wait.

From this side of Penang..

.. To this side of Penang.

Which I'll have to cross the bridge, Autocity, and some railway tracks.

A bridge doesn't sound far, but unless if you stay in this area, then you'll know how it's like.

On a First Generation - Honda Wave 100 ..

XD

I JUST CAN'T WAIT.. HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO

And They Say..

Through psychological studies, music affects the human performance. Regardless of the genre of songs you're listening to, it's all about how fast and upbeat it is according to the tempo of the song.

If a person were to drive along to soothing jazz music, but at 180bpm, he'll speed unintentionally. If it's a little bit slower, he won't be such a daredevil..

But then again, that doesn't entirely apply to everybody. Because some people, are already in touch with music itself; and they end up losing their concentration on the roads because they're passively studying the materials they're listening to.

Some people are able to interrelate themselves with the songs they're listening to, so it's easy to identify their feelings on the spot.

Then again, musicians seldom interrelate themselves with existing songs..

I noticed that I've been taking up the guitar quite a number of times at home lately.

I missed the old times.

And I'm getting them back, where I tend to put my thoughts and emotions through the scales and theories of music.

And oddly, down/uptuning the guitar to fit that odd sound for the acoustic version of Dream Theater's Another Day.

We never know when we're going to live until.

So die another day..

Die Another Day.

Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent sky...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

Home Isn't Where It's At.

Years after years, home never felt like home.

And today, with the absence of me and my brother, home isn't what it is.

Now the blame is entirely only on one person, and not others.

Me.

Even if the sun would come crashing into the Earth, it would be my fault, as long as I stay under this roof.

There's a point where I can't stand this noise pollution, and that time has come.

The family's broken. I don't think there's anything else to believe in except for individual progress.











This vacation just turned into a living nightmare.











This isn't some kind of odd emo post, but I'm way pissed beyond all reasons at the moment. I'm just going to take one hell of a ride, and I can't be bothered if I cause an accident.

In other words, I seriously can't be bothered. Home is where I'm supposed to be alone. Home is where that I'm not entirely bothered. Home is where I'm better of being forgotten.











Permission to say "fuck" on this blog.

I Don't Care!

I'm in love with this song, seriously. So beautifully re-composed..

Touchdown!

And I'm back in Penang. Although this post should've been up about 8 hours ago, I decided to post it up now.

Partly, because I already had last-minute plans before my mum came back from the mainlands.

It's funny? My dad SMS'd both me and her about my arrival time in Penang, which was 5.30pm. Guess what. I had her boxes again, being Mr. Delivery-boy, and she was at Simpang Ampat around that time.

I knew this was going to happen, and I decided to stick to my very own Plan A.

With the living cost in KL being normal to me now that I'm used to it, I got a taxi back. I decided to not be a miser this time, because all I wanted to do was to set the boxes on fire.

Then my mum would set me on fire when she sees me. Hohoho.

I got home, and I got an unknown phone call from some Penang landline. Indeed, it was one of the friends I SMS'd while I was on the Penang bridge; it was Joyce.

Woooo Joyce! How I've missed her. I wanted to meet up with her somewhere to have dinner or something, but she insisted on picking me up. And when that happens, dinner's on me.

It's nice to see her again. I wonder who else am I meeting up in these 4 days.

And for tomorrow:
Morning - Breakfast with ex-collegemates.
Afternoon - Starbucks with the aspiring brainy Sarah Sulaiman Ch'ng.
Night - Please let it not be Starbucks with Uglymen, but attending their jamming session in Jelutong. Now, how do I get there again ............?

And my Starbucks partner told me this on MSN:
Take this opportunity to rest.

I think I kind of overdid myself for the past few weeks, pushing my working schedule to come right after my class ends.. So, it's like, back-to-back in a way.

Doesn't matter.

I spent my time well today at home. I finally restrung my classical guitar after .. 5 years? The strings were all good, until one snapped during my absence - which really ticked me off.

I'll be taking my classical guitar down to KL for better practises instead of using the electric guitar all the time..

I'm currently learning Dream Theater's Another Day - the acoustic version, which sounds so darn beautiful. I'm interested in the finger-style acoustic playing, and that's what I want to learn now.

So far, I managed to get the pre-intro, intro, verse 1, chorus 1, fill 1 all correct. 2nd verse is a little bit odd, but practice makes perfect.

The beautiful harmonics.

And also, what an odd tuning? Instead of the standard tuning, this specific version uses E G# Eb G# B Eb ..

I played the chords mindlessly, having no idea which chords were what, but damn, does it sound so beautiful..











And tomorrow, the rampage of the biker starts. I just can't wait. HOHOHOHOHOHOHO











And so far, I've been saving up money. And here's a list of items I'm considering/will be getting sooner or later:

• Canon PowerShot S5 .. For those who knows the PowerShot S3, the S5 is the bigger brother to that model as they already put the production to a halt. The S5 lasts just about the same as the S3, but it has improved features (such as the 12x optical zoom, bigger LCD screen, etc..).. But I'm considering; because I don't want to buy a camera, fiddle with it for a few days/weeks, then toss it aside. Then again, I never had a digital camera before..
• A bass guitar - for recording. This is a must. I'm sick of humanising Reason bass lines.
• A classical guitar - I think I'll skip this for the moment
• JEM7VWH - getting a little bit ambitious here.
• Line6 TonePort UX1 - Audio interface for recording guitar/bass stuff.

Since all these cost just about a few thousand, shall I surprise my parents by working and getting an..

• Alfasud. Of course, like any other old Alfa Romeos, they rust and depreciate at the speed of their own accelleration. But then again, it's all about putting petrol down into the tank, and making sure that it goes out the right way - making sure that it's fun. Besides, it's a 1.5cc, single-carbo machine.. unlike the other Alfas. And unlike the other old Alfas, it's a FWD .. So ... expect no nonsense from this hatchback.

Or I'll just settle down with a C70. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.

Or live the way I'm living now, save more money and do nothing with it. How's that?











Oh well. Tomorrow's another day, and breakfast's @ 9..wheeeee

I'm Impressed.

Seems to me that our oh-so-kejam Shift Supervisor at the store decided to pull something off..

A blogpost of half of the Starbucks Ikano partners..

Which he forgot to mention himself, by the way.

So I decided to do a quick compilation of pictures, and set things right myself..

Thank goodness I'm off for 5 days .. if not, Fery would've slapped me upside down.. hohoho..


And because he started everything, I made sure that he had the biggest and most obvious spot in the picture.









WHEEEE PENANG. LOL.











And I'm off for 5 days! Woo hoooooo!

As The Time Goes.. Tick, and Tock..

I feel so tired.

Yet, my wings feels a little bit loosened now.

I'm free.

Penang, here I come.. the island where there are no such things as tolls, cheap police bribery and tickets, the land of cheap and easy food, the land of la marzoccos, the land of starbucks baristas always getting my Java Chip orders wrong..

Most importantly, the land where petrol is properly burnt with its roads..

Not idiotic long highways, but the thing that American cars fear the most - corners.

Hohoho..

Batu Feringghi, here I comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I hear my bro's bike revving already.. hohoho..

Hohohoho...

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO...................

okay, time to pack, and I'll be gone for the whole night till tomorrow evening, I suppose.











My sweet music sanctuary.

It's About Time..

It's been a while I'm able to sit down, enjoy a nearly-perfect meal, and watch random stuff on my windows media player.

Time to settle my Ace Ventura 2. .hohoho..

I'm so going to relax...........................................











Until my results come out, of course. Lol

Survey 160708

1. Where is your cell phone?
Right beside me.

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend ?
N/A

3. Your hair?
Somewhat unsatisfied with it.

4. Your mother?
Sleeping, kot?

5. Your father?
Sleeping, kot?

6. Your favorite thing?
Guitar.

7. Your dream last night?
An odd one.

8. Your favorite drink?
oo.. quite a few.

9. Your dream car?
I'm a simple person.. RX-8 ..hohoho. Wait a minute..maybe a Ferarri F430 .. or a Carrera GT..or a Bugatti Veyron (only for its speed..) .. No no..even more simpler.. an alfa romeo 147 GTA.. hohoho

10. Say something about life?
Interesting.

11. Your ex?
Is sleeping, kot?

12. Your fear?
When I stay idle too long; and when I'm not worried about anything..

13. Where do you want to be in 10 years?
No idea, yet..

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
Lifeless, like usual. Was at work, but it's a cool hangout spot, anyways..

15. What you're not good at?
Studies.

16. Muffins?
Starbucks.hohoho

17. When you DIE, u're rather be BURIED or CREMATED?
I'll have to treat my sons properly to be buried .. if not, they'll probably toss me into the sea..hohoho

18. Where you grew up?
Penang, mainly.

19. Last place you've been to?
Starbucks SS2..after work.lol

20. What are you wearing?
Boxers and sleeveless.

21. Where are you?
In my room..

22. Your pet/s?
A dead rabbit in PD.

23. computer/laptop?
Prefer a desktop to a laptop.

24. Your life?
Is interesting.

25. Your mood?
Is interesting.

26. Missing?
Music.

27. What are you thinking about right now?
About the coffee passport..

28. Your fav. color?
black/white..a combination of it..looks very classy..

29. Your work?
Is interesting.

30. Your summer?
Is gay.

31. Your relationship status?
Single but devoted; somehow..

32. Your favorite food?
I'm pretty much okay that's reasonable, and good.

33. When was the last time you laughed?
At SS2.

34. Last time you cried?
Wasn't anytime soon.

35. School?
Graduated. hohoho.

I Thought About It..

.. And sometimes, it never ceases to amaze me about how people change. Either for the better, but mostly for the worse. And whenever they do change for the worse, it's just..wrong?

I find some people rather interesting, especially when they mention regarding strong friendship bonds throughout the years, and all that after a certain period of time, but they never keep their words..

I just viewed some parts, and maybe it's not them who's the problem..but..

being the black sheep, maybe.

Then again, we all must pick up, step off, and start somewhere.











I'll start here.

After A While.

It's nice to watch others around me smiling..

Doesn't matter what I feel anyways.

Hohoho..

Mysteriously odd.

Final paper is on Friday @ 10am. I shall commence operasi-stress in a while after I settle some of my stuff. Huhuhu.

Another Day..

Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent sky...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

The coldness of his words
The message in his silence,
'Face the candle to the wind...'
This distance in my voice
Isn't leaving you a choice
So if you're looking for a time to run away...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day

They took pictures of our dreams
Ran to hide behind the stairs
And said maybe when it's right for you, they'll fall
But if they don't come down
Resist the need to pull them in
And throw them away
Better to save the mystery
Than surrender to the secret

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day

Just lyrics I find quite properly written. Lyrics about how you should not find reasons to ruin the present time, but to postpone it to another day; over and over again.

Time to pull off a donation towards the cops, again.

Random Verses.

Alone at night; I feel so strange.
I need to find all the answers to my dreams.
When I sleep at night, I hear the cries..
.. What does this mean?








Cold was my soul,
Untold was the pain.
I faced when you left me,
A rose in the rain.
I swore to the razor,
and never enchained.
Will your dark nails of faith,
be pushed into my veins again?









One last time,
we lay down today.
One last time,
until we fade away..

Away..










What we have been, is what we are..











And I can go on all night. Lol

Survey 150708

1. The best place to cry?
By the beach, through my thoughts?

2. The THING you love the most?
Passion

3. Your dream last night?
Was odd.

4. Ever hated someone so bad?
Nope.

5. Want to be someone else than you?
No. Though stressed, I wouldn't want to be anyone else but myself..

6. Ever slapped someone?
Got slapped, yep.

7. The last time you cried?
Can't remember; can't be bothered.

8. Bf/Gf?
N/A

9. The last mall you went to?
Ikano .. lol

11. Biggest lie you said today?
That I can't be idle in Starbucks.

12. What do you want to eat right now?
Nothing.

13. Where are you at now?
Home. Alone.

14. Have you ever failed a subject at school?
History, Moral, Biology, Physics and Chemistry. What do you think?

15. What is on your mind right now?
It doesn't make any sense, this tragic ending.
In despite of the evidence, there's something still missing..

16. Honestly, who are you chatting
Nobody.

17. Have you brushed your teeth today?
Yes.

18. Honestly, who do you think is the hottest person alive?
Can't be bothered.

19. Honestly, are you a good friend?
No.

20. Honestly, do you really think going to school is important?
School is nonsense. At the end of the day, if you want to be successful, it's all about connections and determination.

21. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
Definitely not the customers. lol

22. Honestly, what makes you so sad about right now?
Nearly everything.

23.Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst??
Yep

24.Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
No

25.Who is your best friend?
I don't know.

26.What is the best thing about your studies?
I get unexpected results.

27.Which shoe do you put on first?
Right

28.Who was the last person to call you?
Today, tadak orang..

Definitely Not My Week.

Financial Accounting was pretty much okay.

But Management Accounting should cease to exist. It has nothing to do with accounts, I feel. If lecturers were our guidance through the subjects, then I suppose Management Accounting is supposed to be filled with football, American Idol, petrol prices and so forth.

It's off topic, I know, but it's what I go through in class everytime.

The lecturer sucks shit, honestly.

When I opened my paper for MA today, I tell you, I felt like stabbing the facilitators in the eye with my pencil.

I had no clue what the hell was going on.

I checked what I was missing of: 18 marks to at least pass my FA1, and 19 marks to at least pass my MA1.

Meaning that I need to score at least 33.33% on both FA and MA final papers..

... wow.

argh.

LIKE OI. WHAT THE FUCK LAH. KNN











Until now, I still feel so .. lost..

As pussified sissyness as it sounds, I finally felt like breaking down just now, but.. oi. Who am I to break down?











To make things better, I received a love letter from MPPJ just now for illegal parking, so ..

There goes another RM40 .. and I already paid to PDM yesterday.. RM30 ..

That, plus the trip that made me crack the ipod. .

and finals. .

and irritating peoples, sometimes.











Why's all the negativity getting to me, again? I need to wake up, honestly.

Bombarded By Finals.

But this time, the scariest thing is that I can't even be bothered.











What a semester. Just so happens that I've got a shitty lecturer to teach this subject.

And I really mean it.











Hoho. The examination hall will be very interesting. I can't even remember squat of what I went through last night.











Do you know that smile when Joker smiles? It's the super big and wide grin, but it's actually a sarcastic/sadistic smile?

*GRINS*











I shall be sorry for being a failure in a few weeks' time. :)

iPod Cracked.

Nope, that is not the new term of "jailbroken" or hacked or whatever it is.

In fact, it's a new product for the iPod.

And it looks like this:


It looks like an iPod Touch, yes. Especially if it's 16gbs. But the problem is, notice the new screen. The cracked screen.

Oh no. This is not an iPod Touch. It's an iPod Cracked.

Hohoho..

Cantik la sikit......................................

So why have I not sent it for repairs? Oh, it's simple. There's no screw, and everything's welded into one piece. Meaning that the battery can't be dismantled, nor can the screen be removed. Therefore, the only way is to replace it.

Oh wait. There's another alternative! That's to replace the screen, and to do so, it'll cost about..

Oh, not that expensive lah.

It's about Rm1,800.

And the 16gbs model (mine) is still at RM1739.

.. What do you think my decision would be? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA











It still works, and I'm still able to watch my videos, and go online, anyways.

Until the warranty dies, I suppose I'll save up for another.. huuu ..

Classic.

I find this attractive in a very sadistic and awkward way.

But, it's for you..



Don't mind me =x

Random 130708

And as I whisper my words to you.
And as I think of what to say.
And as I whisper my thoughts to everyone around us.
Tell me what they think of,
Tell me what they mean to you..

And as I whisper my thoughts to myself,
And as I think of what to do.
And as I whisper my words to everyone around us,
Tell me what I should do.

Tell me if the path I'm walkin'
Is worth the trouble,
Tell me if this is true.
Tell me if you are smilin',
Is this worth the time,
Tell me if this is what you've gone through.

And those eyes, they tell a story,
Of how you used to be.
And those tears that you've shed, and those words that you've said,
And the thoughts that you once had.
Have them again..
Oh, have them again.

Don't be afraid to show yourself now,
It's just you and me.
Don't be afraid to be who you are now to me.
Who you are now, to me.

To me.. have warmth that we once had.
To you.. as you know what it's like.
To us.. as you know what it's like.
As you know what it's like..
As you know what it's like..

Hold me close to your heart now,
have a little thought.
You won't ever be fooled.
Hold me close to your mind,
You've had me over time.
Like a dog on a leash.

Like a dog on a leash.
Like an trained dog on a leash.

Have yourself in my thoughts,
I'd cherish you there.
Till the day that I see you again.
See you again.
(Free me from this pain)
Till I see you once again ..

And once again ..











"It's just not a love seat without you"

Random stuff. Except for the last line. Was singing those words out for the heck of it, in a funk-genre thing.

Mmm .. gotta replace my guitar strings back in Penang.. hohoho.

Plans, Plans, And More Plans.

Tomorrow is a day that I will..

• Cram both Financial Accounting 1 and Management Accounting 1 together because I'm facing those two papers on Tuesday at 10am and 2pm respectively, and having work at anytime before 7.30pm onwards.
• I only have to cram both papers only due to emergency attendance at work because of one of my parnters called in an emergency leave today .. had to replace him, but I entered work at 7.30pm.
• Travel to KL and get my bus tickets to Penang next Monday till Friday. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
  
• Study some more.
• RM30 for the monthly parking ticket I was issued by the police yesterday.
• Study some more.
• Plan the days I can work.
• And study some more.

This week is going to be extremely stressful for me, so please do excuse me if I happen to be too sarcastic, bossy or being an asshole. Thankius!

PS. I got back to the guitar today. Experienced a new sound; and it was amazing..hohoho.

RIP, Peanut.

When she was 2 weeks old..

Still so timid, and was scared of the new surroundings..

But she was welcomed..happily..

Even I had no say, when I nearly squashed her..

Her name was Peanut, but I'd prefer to call her Ms. Curious..for the times she checked out everywhere of the apartment and new surroundings..

And as she rests..

And gets lazy..

But, she is aware of what's around her..

*scratch scratch.

Dah lah, malas lagi..

Always exploring, always being lost..

And again..

Trying to see what belongs to her territory..

..and she finds her spot.

And this is how she looks like when she sits in front of my door..

And that was the last of the pictures we took of her in the apartment..

I thought she'd be happier elsewhere.. but I was wrong. Yesterday, my dad SMS'd me at work, saying that Peanut suffered from a severe sickness, and depression as she wasn't used to the pet farm. And due to the pressure she gets from other male rabbits, and chickens who kept on pecking on her, so on and so forth.. She suffered from depression and just..left.

I don't really have a soft spot for animals, but she was different?

When I went back to Penang a few weeks ago, my housemate let her loose, and she always stood, laid and scratched my door, hoping that I would open it, just for her to chill, make a mess, and bite all the wires I consider quite..important (!!!)

Now she's gone.

I was hoping to see her again this Christmas, but..

.....

RIP, Peanut.

July 2007 - July 2008 ..

Survey 100708

[One] Who was your last text from?
Pam.

[Two] Where was your default picture taken at?
My room in Damansara..

[Three ] What's your nick name?
Manyak ada-lah.

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Single, and unavailable.

[Five] Does your crush(s) like you back?
Rather to not know.

[Six] What is your current mood?
Contented. Extremely contented.

[Seven] What's your sis's name?
Kellyinyee & Vanesa Kumaara, yoooo!

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
White and grey..

[Nine] What was the last thing you drank?
Still on the Tazo Zen..

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
There's nothing to change. Every fault and mistake happens for a reason. I'm still alive; therefore there's nothing to change about the past.. hohoho.. unless if you're really in a tight situation, of course, that's a different case.

[Eleven] Have a crazy side?
Definitely.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
A few.

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Grease trap. wakakakakakakakaka

[Fourteen] Angry at anyone?
Nope :)

[Fifteen] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
..And watch over, of course.

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Tak ade..

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
Probably centuries ago.

[Eighteen] Who would you do anything for?
Partners who're worth working for.

[Nineteen] Who is your idol?
I've got a few..

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
Body language and personality.

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from?
I thought cashiers were to be considered as human..?

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
Something, lah.

[Twenty-four] Favorite movie?
I'd say it'd be the 8th Mile. Inspiring shit.

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
No time

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Bloody hell..

[Twenty-seven ] Do you speak any other language?
I only speak English, sorry 0=)

[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
Shampoo kot.

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in two words, what would it be?
Very lifeless.

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
kinky. lol

[Thirty-one] Do you like the rain?
Not when I don't have an umbrella as a backup.

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
Why am I that contented and happy?

Then Again..

Hmm..

Since I've got nothing else better to do, I'll blog about ... today.

Hohoho.

I just came back from work about an hour ago? Had to rush all the way to Bukit Bintang, and then back to Damansara just for my retainers, that I left in Penang since the last trip.

Oopsie daisy.

I had my quiz going on this morning, and well, it went rather smoothly? Thank goodness I studied a little bit..

Then I pranced off to the school of business; where I saw a private one-on-one tutoring between my taxation lecturer and a classmate of mine. I hope they didn't mind the intrusion, but I joined in and did my studies there, and asked about one of the chapters that I'm not familiar with.

After that, I headed to Starbucks to inform my manager that I wasn't able to work 8 hours today, because of yesterday's emergency. Had to cut it down to 6 hours.. So yeah.

Went home, used the internet, with proper speed and managed to get my stuff done.

I received a Hallmark e-Card.. Someone definitely knows how to make my day with ease and simplicity.

Went to Ikano, and parked at the usual illegal spot, where I saw a very familiar Kelisa.. hohoho..Aisyah was in Ikano because Kak Anita was around.. Wheeee...

Was working with the 2 new partners; Chermaine Teh (who's not so new) and Shukri. Had to start from scratch to tell them what to do from time to time, and ..the usual stuff lah.

I don't like being a senior because.. I don't know..

I don't mind teaching and all, but eventually, there'll be a point where they'll come back right at you at one point.. hohoho.

I don't admit that I'm the best, after all.. I'm just doing my job, and what I've been taught.. If I missed out something, that means I wasn't taught in the beginning kot..

Mmmm

*Sips the Tazo Zen.










And now, I'm here.

I'm lazy to do surveys at the moment. And since I'm somewhat awake, I'll go through my notes, to refine whatever I've learnt in the private class thingy.











Penang, anybody? :)

And I've Been Thinking..

I got back home, with my iPod stuck in my ears, and when I took it off, the ex-girlfriend and the brother greeted me; as they were nowhere to be seen.

Later, realising that they were squatting behind me in the kitchen area, sorting some fish meat out, I think?

And I saw my housemate's eye; it started to swell like hell. It got from bad, to worse, until a point where both of his eyes are tightly shut because of the swell.

He asked if I knew how to get to Hospital Universiti in PJ area, and I've only been there to do my EPF nonsense, and hung quite a bit there just to get my Taipod jab (for fast food outlets and all that stuff, but I haven't gotten mine yet..hohoho)

At his condition, he was going to be temporarily blinded for a short period of time. I had to study for my quiz.

He asked for a favour.

What can I do?

I made my way through.

So, we were all there, and I stood beside Shemane, watching her brother maintaining his cool as he was being jabbed by some injection to counter-attack his allergy, caused by his painkillers he took earlier on the day.

It's been a while, and Shemane asked how was I and all. It had been quite a while since we last spoke.

.. Come to think of it, we never really spoke for quite a bit.

I never had the time.

I never had the time for anything, or anybody, after my major roll-out in Starbucks..

What have I been doing?

Priorities come first. Although my quiz was important, but who knows what would've happened to my housemate. He's still a friend after all.

Despite his parents not being in Malaysia, he's still a son in his family.

And for parents to lose their child, is even worse than their own fated death.









On top of it all; why do I feel responsible upon others?








And was it worth the sacrifice?










Mmmm.. It's always good to offer help to others when they need it..

Oh well.back to studies. No point sleeping for the night. I think I've caused enough disappointment.

I'm sorry to have kept you waiting and the disappointment caused.

I've Been Thinking..

Mozilla Firefox's been extremely unreliable these days.  I don't even bother to switch to Internet Explorer because that's a gateway towards spywares and viruses on normal websites, so I'm using Safari for the moment.  Hohoho.

I've been thinking; I do have quite a bit of time on my hands besides working nearly like a full timer and studying at the same time.  Now, I'm pushing myself beyond the limits because I'm way too bored.

I've got lots of energy to waste, and this is how I'm wasting it.  By helping out others in the store when they really need it, when I'm free, and many more.

Sadly, these minor help doesn't really get recognised by the other people.  Which I don't mind, entirely.  More politic issues, but I can't be bothered.

Now, I was thinking ..

Why?

And maybe I do have the answer.  But I'll continue thinking after my studies.  Hohoho.

After finals, I'm going on a all-out guitar rehabilitation session.  I'm going to kick myself into music again.  Gotta get a new set of strings.  Wheeee

Survey 080708

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Yep.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
Nope.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Satisfying one.

Does your brother have a gal?
I think so..XD

What is your Brother's gal name?

No idea 0=)

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
Collapsed, or slipped and fell?

Do you play an instrument?
Guitars..

What is the reason behind your display name?
The cold is always appreciated.

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
November?  Probably my finals kot.

Name someone who said something today?
Yesterday would be..Aisyah with, "I really appreciate your contribution towards Starbucks".. XD .. finally got that line right.. wakakakakakakaka

Today..tadak ape pun..

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
At work.

What is the last thing you spent money on?
Food.

Whats your favorite drink?
soy rasp w/ choc chips w/ whipped cream w/ chocc drizzle

Is the person you last hugged attractive?

Yes.  She's got a beautiful soul, a determined heart, and a mind of caring thoughts..

What do you hear right now?
"You were the angel of my life; taught me to be free..

Now I'm a stranger in your eyes; walls are closing in on me.."

Hammerfall - Always Will Be

How did you wake up this morning?
Alarm clock.

Do you believe everything you hear?
It depends?

Do you live near your best friend?
No.  I've got none. lol

Where were you at 11:45 AM today?
on my bed.

Do/did you listen to your parents?
Gladly, no XD

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
No.  But I know my manager would text me saying that it's my fault for raining, he'll cancel his plans, and he'll pun the blame on me -.-

Do you fight with your parents all the time?
Nope.

What is the best eye color on a member of the opposite sex?
Oddly, I've been attracted to Hazelnut-brown contact lenses on the opposite sex.. Hmmm.  Probably they stand out in contrast kot?

Last time you cried?
A few years ago.

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
It depends.

Who was the last person you commented?
The other partners kot?

What is something you want to do now?
I have this itch to play the guitar..

Are you happy with where you are in your life?
Quite, actually.  Money isn't everything.  It's the experience and the adrenaline of facing what fate brings :)

Unnoticed Loyalty.

Today, I worked at Starbucks Ikano for an hour, then my Store Manager decided to kick me to Starbucks Borders @ The Curve for 7 hours to help out the first supervisor I worked with, Arif, due to the shortage of partners.

Starbucks @ Borders is .. extremely laid back.

Not my type of working environment.  I need a balance of both of them, so mid-volume stores, like Ikano, would be my taste.

Starbucks The Curve, on the other hand, gets the adrenaline pumping once you overstress yourself with the countless amount of drinks being ordered.

During my break from Borders, I ran back to Ikano, and I felt more .. energized.  Originally, I was supposed to do the middle shift, therefore, I was supposed to have my till, and take orders from customers while the opening partner goes for a break.

Sadly, the Manager on Duty had to take a till, until the closing partner enters his shift.

And with new partners on the bar, it is a rule that they're not allowed to touch the espresso machine to make espresso beverages, even if it's to steam the milk.

I took my friend's apron and cap, and stood by my manager.  Since he dumped me in The Curve to learn how is it like to work in a busy store, and my performance and sharpness increased a little bit.

All the hot beverages came by, and I worked for 10 minutes or so; until my break was up, and until the crowd died down.

And for the first time, he actually thanked me.

After that, I dropped by Starbucks SS2, Aisyah was the closing manager, and I met new partners.  One of them was still a little bit blur, and wasn't bitten by the Starbucks bug yet, and the other was ... somewhat there.

I wonder how can she survive working with new partners constantly.

And then again, she was grateful for some stuff.

I'm free from biased; regardless about politics.  I can see potential in some people, and I can see no potential in most people.  My loyalty stays when I notice the potential ones.

Most importantly; we're family.  So guys, gear up, and let's do it!

Cheh.  Patriotic sial.  Hello, sunshine!

Survey 070708

###100 facts about urs....

001. Real name?
Jean Louis Sibert

002.Nicknames?
John, Seabird, Jean, Sunblock, Keju basah, boyfriend #02/01 (need to confirm with Farina with this. .wakakakaka), honey =x, Jin Lekaki, Full-time part-timer, Triple M..and so many other names..

003. Status?
Single but unavailable.

004. Zodiac sign?
Libra.

005. Male or female?
Male.

006. Age?
20 this year.

007. Highschool?
S.M.K. Westlands.

008. College?
KDU College (PJ Campus)

009. residence?
Which one?

010.Hair color?
Dark brown, kot?

011. Long or short hair?
I don't know

012. Smoke?
Nope.

013. Drink?
Nope

014. Available?
Not available to talk.

015. Are you a health freak?
Nope.

016. Height?
167 - 169cm kot

017. Do you have a crush on someone?
Evaluated; and I don't think so.

018. Do you like yourself:?
Sometimes.

019. Piercings?
Nope.

020.Righty or lefty?
Righty

021. Tattoos?
....Mmmm...

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FIRSTS :
022. First surgery?
6 years old

023. First piercing?
N/A

024. First bestfriend/s?
I forgot.

025. First award?
Highest scorer for English in Form 1.. lol

027. First pet?
Hamster..

028. First vacation?
I don't take vacations.  Just roadtrips.

029. First date?

Probably back in 2003 kot.

030. First crush?
I can't be bothered.

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CURRENTLY:
049. Eating?
Dust

050. Drinking?
Moisturised air..or something.

052. I'm about to?
finish this up, and believe that I'm not hungry.  Mmmm..

053. Listening to?
Dream Theater - Pull Me Under.

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FAVORITES
054. Food?
Good ones.

055. Drink/s?
Soy Chocolate Chip Raspberry Blackcurrant Frappucino Blended Juice Drink..lol

056. Color/s?
Blacks kots.

057. Number/s?
06xxx

YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids?
An orchestra please, thankius

059. Want to get married?
Entirely optional.

060. Careers in mind?
Mmmm...

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WHICH IS BETTER? :
068. Lips or eyes?
Eyes.  Head over heels when it comes to eyes.

069. Hugs or kisses?
Simple; and clean hugs.  The warmth, emotions felt, and the presence of others is truly a blessing.

070. Shorter or taller?
I'm cool with anything.

072. Romantic or spontaneous?
Being classic.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms?
I can't be bothered.lol

074. Sensitive or loud?
Mysterious.

075. Hook-up or relationship?
A proper relationship.

076.Trouble maker or hesitant?
Tak tau..lalalala

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HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger?
No.

079. Drank bubbles?
Upon the ice grande shaken lemon tea, yes..lalalala...

080. Lost glasses/contacts?
Nope.

081. Ran away from home?
Once.

082. Liked someone younger?
Yes?

083. Older?
Yes?

084. Broken someones heart?
....

085. Been arrested?
Yep.

086. Turned someone down?
Yes.

087. Cried when someone died?
No

088. Liked a friend?
Mmmm..

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DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089.In yourself?
Sometimes..

090. Miracles?
Sometimes.

091. Love at first sight?
Kinda...

092. Heaven?
I do want to see how it's like..

093. Santa claus?
Until the day I saw the letters we posted to Santa Claus in my dad's briefcase.

094. Sex on the first date?

Excuse me?

095. the more you hate, the more you love?
There's more love in hatred itself, and there's more hatred in love itself.

096. Angels?
Are making others not robbing me.

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?
*scratches head*

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time
Nope.  Please la, stay loyal...what do you think relationships are?  Funfairs?

099. Do you believe in God?
Yes.

#100 is missing!  wheeeee

Of Sheer Boredom.

Instructions:Remove one question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people from your list. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them that they have been tagged.

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1. At what age you wished to marry?
Not in plans.

2.Will you consider sexual relationships before marriage?
Yum .....consider sexual relationships for myself, or others?  I just served a japanese customer whom I heard was very VERY VERY sexually active..lol..that explains the extra strong espresso shots..lol

3. Do you smoke?
We all do, don't we?  *points towards haze in Malaysia*

4. What are your phobias?
. Bikes with discbrakes.

. People who drive without signalling

. Dumb lecturers.

. Unsanitised stuff in the store, and new stores.

. Getting eyebags.  Thicker ones.  or eyebags on my eyebags.

. Crosswinds

. 1kmph on the road.

5. Who did you mostly text yesterday?
I terlupa dah..

6. How old are you and are you a virgin?
20 this year, and in what sense?  Wakakakakakakaka

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
Errr ... Ice cream lol =S

8. Chocolates , Oreo or Vanilla?
Oreo

9. Where do you wish to get married?
A proper wedding; probably on a nice lawn and an arch, perhaps?

Or maybe in a submarine.. XD

10. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by love?
When I've properly evaluated myself; and is in touch with myself; and "her"

11. How many kids do you want?
An orchestra would be good.

12.What is your full name?
Jean.L in Starbucks, Jean Louis Sibert; in the real world.

13. Name the latest book you bought?
Last month's Top Gear Malaysia.

14. Do you prefer mother or father?
Daddy

15.Name the first person you want to meet in life for the first time?
Mike Portnoy

16.Name the first person that came into your mind.
This would be kept in secrecy.

17. The most exciting place you want to go?
Nurburgring.

18. What is your favourite colour?
Black, white, tanned, and blue.

19.Do you believe in God?
of course. lol

20. Do you do your laundry?
No choice. lol

21.What makes you the person who you are today?
Discipline, thoughts, determination, passion, priorities, and goals.

22. I tag
Sammy PongPong, NingNing, and everybody else lah.