Sunday, August 31, 2008

Merdeka Eve @ Starbucks Ikano.

Funniest thing today is that all of us were 45 minutes late due to the fact we decided to car pool to Ikano area since we knew it was going to be jammed packed.

I had a slight taste of how it was going to be like. And for the first time, even compared to Starbucks The Curve, it was really busy ..

But boy, was it fun!

The drinks just kept on coming, and coming, and coming. I even gave up to call back on the drinks because under a minute.. bloody hell..there were 15 fraps waiting to be done - and increasing.

It's insane, I tell you.

We opened till 1am, and we took our own sweet time.

Regardless if it was busy, stressful or whatever it is, we had fun.

The most important thing is teamwork; in no matter what sort of company or organisation you work in. And some people are missing of that plus point because they're just stuck up or plain arrogant.

Their loss.

Of course, I had my expectations for tonight, but that doesn't matter.

Woo hoo!

Tomorrow's Merdeka Day .. mmm .. I wonder what's coming up next.

I'll sleep, then I'll find out tomorrow. Wheee

Thoughts II.

What I've felt; what I've known,
Never shine to what I've shown.
Never free, never me.
So I dub thee unforgiven..

Saturday, August 30, 2008


There was no time for pain
No energy for anger
The sightlessness of hatred slips away
Walking through winter streets alone
He stops and takes a breath
With confidence and self control

I look at the world and see no understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense of strength
I'm begging you from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to my knees
And I lay here drained of strength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

The ways that your heart sounds makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way that your heart beats makes all the difference
In learning to live
Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up
Till I've no more to give

Dream Theater - Learning To Live.

Lyrics written by: John Myung


1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- Probably get stoned. That happened way too many times, so it's a normal thing, I guess.

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- Understanding everything that I never once did..

3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
- Somewhere isolated and quiet.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- Nope. Not really.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
- One that has a strong, blessed and structured personality and heart, I guess..

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Knowing how to love; and to be loved. Anybody can love anybody; but knowing to feel and spread love .. it's different.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Don't know, don't care. Patience is the key.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Let them be. It is a sin to steal.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- College and work, I guess.

10. What do you want most in life?
- Happiness.

11. Is being tagged fun?
- With a price gun, very.. hoho..

12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
- Somewhere else, but here..

13. Who is the current most important person to you?
- Very good question.

14. What type of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Crazily in love, crazily confused, and crazily crazy.

15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
- Anything goes. Everything happens for a reason.

16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
- Two lions that'll hump for the rest of their lives.

17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
- Improper rest.

18. What kind of person do you think you are?
- Old fashioned and classic, I guess. I don't know.

19. What do you define as a bad day?
- When every one of your plans just turns sour.

20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
- Music.


Merdeka Eve!

Woo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.. Can't wait can't wait.. wanna see how's the crowd like at Starbucks Ikano .. XD

By tomorrow, I should be more than half-dead. hoho

Friday, August 29, 2008

As I Am.

Tell me what's in
Tell me how to write
Don't tell me how to win
This fight
Isn't your life
It isn't your right
To take the only thing that's

Proven over time
It is over your head
Don't try to read between the
Are clearly defined
"Never lose sight of
Something you believe in"

Taking in the view from the outside
Feeling like the underdog
Watching through the window I'm on the outside
Living like the underdog

I've been trying to justify you
In the end I will just defy you

To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, Take me as I am

As I am

Running uphill
Swimming against the current
I wish I weren't so
Feels like I'm stuck
Lost in a sea of mediocrity

Slow down,
You're thinking too much
Where is your soul?
You cannot touch
The way I
Or tell me what to say
You're in the way
Of all that I believe in

Taking in the view from the outside
Feeling like the underdog
Watching through the window I'm on the outside
Living like the underdog
I've been wasting my breath on you
Open minds will descend upon you

To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am

To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am

As I am


As I am

Had this song playing over and over again for the day.. No idea why. I'm having thoughts again, feeling tensed, and .. I don't know what else.


Must remember to finish up my Commercial Law assignment .. due date 19th September.. blah.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

It's Been A While.

It's been a while since I last woke up this early by myself. Usually, I'd be tossing and turning in bed until my alarm rings. But this time, I woke up 2 hours before the alarm even sounded.

But today, it feels rather abnormal.. Waking up to an apartment unit where you don't see any faces. But yet, the sun shines brightly.

I think over, and over again ..

Then the thoughts get erased. The only thing I have in mind is today's classes, this week's assignment, stupid tutorials, Dream Theater, lunch, Starbucks and probably the roads.

Random thoughts, I know, but..

.. There's nothing else that I can think of everyday..?

Mmm.. And my eyes are bloodshot red. No idea why for the morning. Hohoho.

Once the stone you're crawling under is lifted off your shoulders.
Once the cloud that's raining over your head disappears.
The noise that you hear; is the crashing down of hollow years..

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


It's tough, I'm finally heading back to the basics.. :')

Saturday, August 23, 2008


Give yourself another chance;
to find yourself again.
Bring out the spirits that lurks in you;
to find what's true before hand.

Speak out the thoughts that lingers in your mind,
even if the thoughts were blurred through imagination.
Set yourself free and see what this world provides,
even if the real world blocks you from being who you really can be.

The physical touch may be far apart,
but it's the heart that keeps everybody close as one.
It's the pain that makes us learn,
that we should never underestimate.

Even if thoughts were stale,

Even if it's scattered,
Even if death prevails,
Not even the soul can be battered.

Being The One.

It's been a while since I last did a self-reflection session about to evaluate my current standings and flaws.

So far, it's been the working and studying environment for me.

Sad to say, I have disappointed myself due to my current characteristics, personality and attitude.

I have changed; yet it was for some bits of the better, yet most for the worse.

Sad, but true.

For those who are comfortable around me, thank you for pulling it together, I guess..

Thursday, August 21, 2008

To Eliminate Things That Irritate.

Tools: Noisy keyboard, metal ruler, fingers, lecturer, being bored and a focused mind.

Step 1:

Step 2:

Seriously, that space bar was freaking noisy and annoying. So I dismantled it and got it over with. How did I access the space bar after I took it off? Simple

With the tip of a pen.. wheeeee

today was a very tiring day for me. boohoo

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

^ @$&!^@*!@&#$!@*#&

For the first time, I feel like a zombie in class at the moment.

And this is my first time taking control of a computer while entering class!

Wait a minute. The last time I did something like this was Introduction to IT back in KDU PG in 2006.. Hoho..

But this is much more deeper in a way. Imagine this. This class is called Accounting Information Systems..


I hope it has nothing to do with that UBS or whatever nonsensical programme it is that's being used to create databases for accounting systems, so on and so forth.

I checked the first chapter for this subject, and it doesn't show much except for .. Uh ..

Debit, Credit, Asset = Liabilities - Owners' Equity.

.......... ?????

Introduction to Accounting dowhhhh ..

Someone make me down a quad-espresso .. I've been thinking of nothing but sleep.

Guling guling guling @ computer lab. terlanggar lecturer dan terlepas gas kentut semula jadi kat class dan teraktivatekan smoke alarm .. selepas tu, KDU PJ dibakar.


Merepek sial. Otakku masih keadaan tido..

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

A Short Reminder To Self.

Since I'm lazy to use planners and organisers, I would like to use my blog to remind myself to download all notes from my online-college webportal to for all subjects.

Or I'll just probably fail the semester or something. Bwahahahahahahahahaha..

Starbucks Kopi @ 5.30pm .. hoho

I Hate Being Idle.

I noticed not long ago, that I never liked staying idle unless if I'm way too tired, or way too demotivated to move on in some aspects of a subject.

It really depends on what I'm doing.

Wait a minute, I've got no idea what I'm saying.

Like this blog, for example. I've got another hour to burn because of the same lecturer that nearly made me fail my Management Accounting 1 last semester, but who cares?

Alwyas ruining my daily schedule. If it weren't for these nonsensical break hours, I would've been doing something else more progressive, I guess.

Well, it's just the first week. I can't be blaming everything on a certain subject now, can I?

Let me see. Work at 5.30pm, but I think I might be entering a few minutes late because I received another love letter from the cops today due to the usual illegal parking at my place at home in Damansara.

I really need to get one of them stickers, dude.. Then again, RM120 per month for parking indoors is kind of ridiculous. That would definitely kill my savings to get my musical equipment.

I'm still spoilt for a choice in what I should really do nowadays. Hmmm..

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts.

Too many things to do, too many problems to consider, but yet so little time ..

Oh well! I'll go find something else to do. Like... Uh. Read a book due to boredom, perhaps. Lalala..

First Day At College.

And honestly, I'm not used to it because I've been working and doing everything else that does not relate to studies.

Weird, but it feels great to be in college again! There's a little bit of excitement in my life once again.

Today, was nothing much. I didn't sleep the whole night after the previous blog post, and let me see..

6am - Went to McDs @ Mutiara Damansara for breakfast.
6.30am - Proceeded to Bukit Bintang.
7.10am - Left Bukit Bintang after checking up on some stuff.
7.30am - Arrived at KDU and read Jeremy Clarkson's .. Just Another Thing Volume II
8am - Financial Accounting 2 class
9am - Went home and slept
1.45pm - My supervisor called up to clarify some stuff at the store.
3.45pm - Rushed off to the store to check and settle some stuff.
4.40pm - Lunch with my supervisor and partner from the store.
7pm - Tesco grocery shopping.
8pm - Headed to Sri Hartamas to pick up my supervisor to proceed to Ampang for this Starbucks Futsal match thingy.
10pm - Headed back to Damansara, met up with my ex-supervisor @ Starbucks SS2 and had supper.
1.42am - Typing this blog.

Just another regular day. There's nothing much to blog about for the day.

Tomorrow, is what my regular routine resumes. Class, work, work, class, class, work, work, class.. back to back yo!

I sense this week is going to be kind of boring because.. It's the first week. Introduction towards the subjects, etc. It's nothing much, so from next week onwards, I'd better pull my socks up. Last semester, I scored averagely; but not good. Just the borderline to pass whatever it is I needed to pass.

And since I had about 3 hours of sleep, I shall retire for the day, and wake up to another tomorrow.


Another day at work. Wheeee.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Stuck In My Head.

I tossed and turned in bed, and yet, I still have half an hour to go when I'm supposed to wake up, and get prepared for class, which begins at 8am till 10am today.

First day of class, indeed.

Besides that, I sense something's up. I had this really dark theme stuck in my head, the intro for A Change of Seasons by Dream Theater being played over and over again.

I got up, and picked up my guitar and tried to learn the intro, in the end.

For more than 2 hours, I have finally settled, let's say, 1 minute out of 20 minutes of the song?

Time signature, chord progressions, string skipping, etc

Makes me sick at times, but it's just plain fun to really play it right.

Just that I'm missing of a 7 string guitar to play this song. Had no choice but to downtune every single note.

Then again, I notice that there's something wrong. Just that I can't seem to place my finger on it. I let songs explain my thoughts, and I'm getting a little bit paranoid after being involved too deep.

What IS wrong, anyway ..

In a sense that's caressing me, I never felt so young before..

Sunday, August 17, 2008


I'm watching you watch over me.
I like that; the greatest view from here..

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Corrupted Politics.

Corruption happens everywhere; it's only a matter of the level if it's high; or low.

.. Same goes for politics, anyway. Regardless if they sit their asses off in the parliament, or the working environment.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Now, I Know.

Now, I know how it feels like to be betrayed, alone and to have false beliefs.

Let's go through another change of seasons, shall we?

After all, it only takes one bad feather just to make an eagle a poor hunter.


Over the horizon, where you stand,
The warmth of the sun was comfort.
The greatest view, with the one,
That made time pass quick.

Over the horizon, where flocks flew,
Gracefully, without issues.
The greatest view, with the one,
That quickened my heart beat.

Over the horizon, where I stood,
The warmth turned into boiling heat,
The greatest view, being with the one,
'Tis was like a war; only a double-edged sword was held.

Over the horizon, where you stand.
Where the warmth regains itself,
The greatest view, where myself I'd diminish,
Makes the sun shine brighter than it ever shone.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I Got An Off Day To..

.. Attend Iz's album launch @ Bangkok Jazz in KL, today at 3pm.

See you all there, I suppose. I'm not sure what sort of title he gave me in the presentation or whatever it is, but I think it's going to be rather ambitious.

Oh well.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Thoughts At Home.

It's a daily habit for me to get somewhat enough sleep at times, wake up, be blur for a few hours, then head to work.

Then again, it being a repetitive lifestyle and schedule, some label it as - someone who doesn't have a life.

Maybe yes, and maybe no. But sometimes, it does hit me rather drastically. Just that I'm not greatly affected by the thought. I think about it, realise about it, and then the working hours come into play.

So, I don't really know where do I stand at this point. Only one thought stays in my mind to really live everyday. The reason why I got myself into this mess is to graduate, get my papers done for Australia, and then leave for another stage and tougher level of education there.

For the moment, I'll just feel .. empty.

Ooh! I see a guitar!

Quote Survey.

Got tagged by Ning.

Instructions: Use quotes to answer question. Do not repeat quotes. Mean what you typed.

1) Life is interesting; only if you're aware of the plans you're going to achieve.
2) Life can be appreciated only after we perish.
3) The life we lead depends on how strong our character is.
1) Death is where you free the trapped spirit.
2) Death lingers amongst Petrolheads.
3) Death is just a dream; only you don't wake up from it.
1) Love is a massage therapy to ease the needs of the heart.
2) Love is overrated when you see them written in words.
3) Love is not the main reason why we get hurt.
1) Break-ups are the perfect motivation to realise that a significant partner is not everything in this world.
2) Break-ups exists only because that the person you're with, isn't worth the time you're going to spend it with.
3) Break-ups are probably the best thing ever to happen to someone who wants to spread his/her wings.
1) What has past, is now the past.
2) Taking opportunity risks either leads to a huge success, or a blasting mistake.
3) If you regret, it means you never used your head to think things throughoutly.
1) Friendship stands above the line of how important other things can be.
2) With strong bonds, comes a strong team.
3) Even when you've broken down, your friends will offer you a ride.
1) Girls are rather interesting; especially when they're lesbians.
2) Learn to keep your distance; especially when you know that you have a boyfriend that gets jealous easily.
3) Girls are just as complicated and corrupted as men. It's the attitude that we should be confused about; not stereotyping genders.
1) Insulting others is the best way to lower your personal standards to the person you're insulting.
2) Who's the person who has no life? You, asking your MAN-ager out for a movie; Or me, going out with my friends who happens to be the opposite sex?
3) At least dumbfucks get laid.
[I tag]
1) Everybody

Survey 120808

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Lack of sleep, I only smiled when my favourite songs were randomly shuffled on my playlist..hoho..
2. When was the last time you met someone new?
Probably today.
3. When did you last eat pizza?
Wasn't anytime soon..
4. Do you drink beer?
5. Do you wash your own clothes?
6. Are you any good at poker?
What's poker?
7. What do you want more than anything?
To live a colourful life than to lead a dead and stagnant one.
8. Are you tired?
Not really. But everybody else says I look tired.
9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
10. Pepsi or Coke?
11. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
14. Are you restless?
15. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
16. How many friendster views do you have?
17. Want to be a prince/princess?
18. Do you believe dreams come true?
Nope. One of the reasons why I have them as dreams, and to never achieve them. Also, it's a good thing to think about every now and then.
19. Last song you heard?
Some Dream Theater song.
20. Do you like Batman?
21. Who is in the room with you?
22. What are you wearing on your foot?
23. What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken Pie.
24. What were you doing before this?
Chatting and sorting out my accounts.
25. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
26. In your opinion what is the weirdest thing listed on
GO figure out yourself.
27. What instant messaging service do you use?
28. What is your favourite website?
29. Whose house were you at last night?
My own.
30. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
31. What is the last movie you watched?
Can't remember. Can't be bothered.
32. What do you currently hear right now?
Mario Biondi - I'm Her Daddy.
33. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
2nd April 2008
34. Where's your favorite place to be?
KL home or Starbucks Ikano.
34. Have you ever heard of the band Our Lady Peace?
35. Where do you sleep?
On the bed.
36. Where do you shop the most?
Tesco. Lol
37. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Got it at work. It's the Starbucks uniform. wheeee.
38. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
39. Where was your default pic taken?
Which default picture?
40. Why did you pick your background?
What background?
41. Are you happy with where you are?
42. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
43. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Come to think of it, not really..
44. Do you believe that you can change someone?
No. Better stay that way.
45. What are you going to do after you do this survey?
Bathe, then sleep.

As He Waits.

He has the tendency to repeat.
Over, and over again.
He has the life to live.
Over, and over again.

He has diminished the connections he once had,
He questioned himself, but never voiced it.
He knew what was going to happen,
He took the first step.

Now without turning back, he is hanging by moments,
Moments that he should forget, or achieve what's right.
With a cigarette that determines his lifetime,
Slowly burning, yet fading.

His future is blurred, but he knows what needs to be done.
The future comes soon, but the present stays now.
He assures himself, he knows what he wants.
For the moment, he shall keep on walking..

Monday, August 11, 2008


I never felt this dead tired before.

This is my first time due to lack of sleep.

And I hope it'll be the last.........damn..It's been a while since I last did something like this..

My Name Is..

What Jean Louis Sibert Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

Best of all is that I have to disagree with most of the points stated above. It's interesting to know about how these sort of scripted forms actually hit some of the points right. probability of it getting the right points is quite low depending on the individual, but then again, this is for fun .. so yeah.

If the positive points about myself to influence others is true, that would be kind of interesting.. I'd see a bunch of coffee-making guitarists in the near future..

It's The Adrenaline That Keeps Me Going.

Tonight, was rather insane. Then again, I can't go against my parents when they asked me to head straight to Port Dickson only because of my mum's forgetfulness.

Oh wait. Head straight to Port Dickson AFTER I arrive in Kuala Lumpur.

It's about 1 and a half hours to get to Port Dickson after you leave the toll. Damn.

Plus I'm on a middle shift tomorrow, so that means that I had to go, and come back on the same night.

It's 4.39am at the moment, and here I am, after a night.

Surprisingly, I don't feel sleepy at all.

I find it ridiculous about how mothers or parents would abuse whatever you have when all they care for is their nonsensical items that they forgotten about, and they push the responsibility towards you to deliver and patch the mistakes they've done. Interesting, but rubbish at times most times.

I only ask my dad to take things back for me when I tend to leave them behind only because I know that he's going to be around KL area, and since he's going back to Penang, I don't mind meeting up.

But asking me to bring back nonsensical and ridiculous items from Penang to KL, then eventually telling me that you won't be around to meet up, and then sending me a last minute SMS saying that I should drive down to PD.

Thank goodness I take driving as a hobby, so I wouldn't mind setting myself on fire with a burst of passionate petroleum-based fire.

Some people, are just out of their minds. My mother, on the other hand, treats her garden as her heart. Sometimes, I wonder; as her child, her garden's more important - leaving me thoughts that I'm actually adopted in this family?

I can't be bothered.

That's why I laugh at the term family time together. In the end, someone has to screw it up, and it becomes a ghastly gathering in the end.

Anyways, I commence work in about 6 hours, and I've already unpacked. Time to sleep, and it's back to the usual working schedule.

And I'm wondering; when's the next time will I be back in Penang... Hmm.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Reading's A Good Habit.

A new partner of mine asked what books do I usually read when I'm free when I was last working at the store.

Come to think of it, I never got any books lately.

And since I'm going back by bus tomorrow, I might be bored for 4 hours.

Therefore, I got this.. XD

Wheee XD.. Jezza.. <3

A New Discovery.

I've got no idea, but he's known as Vitas. I find his sort of music very cute.

But damn, can he hit the high notes with ease..

And then, we've got a Singaporean couple who tends to get bored..

I'm Not Gay, But...

.. I think Jack Johnson is an extraordinary acoustic guitar player, and he has a distinctive voice when he sings.

Therefore, I just downloaded his discography ..XD hohoho..will check out how good he is.. lalala...

Perhaps, that'll help me to get back on track in music.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Hammerfall - Always Will Be.

Our sun is set, our day is done, I'm left here wondering
Is this the end, my final words to you
Day turned to night and now you're gone, I'm left here pondering
Can this be true, are we really through

You were the wind beneath my wings, taught me how to fly
With you I lived among the kings, how could this ever die

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever,
and I Always Will Be

We were one, we were all, we were the only
Future full of hope, nothing could stand in our way
But dreams can change, visions fall, I feel so lonely
I would walk through fire for just one more day

You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free
Now I'm a stranger in your eyes, walls are closing in on me

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever
And I Always Will Be
Missing you, in my heart you are The One
And you Always Will Be

When I turn to the east, I see no dawn,
but after darkness comes the light
And when I turn to the west, the silent night hides all
Where is the light that shines so bright

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever
And I Always Will Be
Missing you, in my heart you are The One
And you Always Will Be

Nah-nah-na ... and you Always Will Be
Nah-nah-na ... and you Always Will Be
And you Always Will Be
my Little One you are
And you Always Will Be.

Just random thoughts with this song..

And Before I Sleep.

I feel you with me.
I see you when I close my eyes.
Always wondering..
Always wondering if you were alright.

And even if the distance,
Seperates us.
I'm always wating.
I'm always wating..

To be home.
To be home..
To be a place, where I call home.

And when you're here.
The thoughts get stronger.
And when you're gone,
The nights get lonelier.

The sweetest feeling to dread for,
Would be the thought of you.
And when the nights are cold,
It's your warmth I dread for; before I sleep..

Mmmm ... mmmm....

Just A Few Months Ago..

I came back to Penang with a large load of baggages, and all. Of course, that was the time before the petrol prices increased, so I drove back.

Only because ther ewas a special request by my ex-/bandmate because he wanted to shoot some music video thing, and he needed props.

A rock band. XD

Finally, he managed to finish the video, and I just had a look at it.. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm..

May I say that I'm feeling a little bit vain pot-ish now? XD


Something to remember how the old good the old days felt like..mmm..

And you were in it too ...

RIP Pininfarina

I am left fucking speechless..................................................................................

Why.., yet the holidays are about to end..


Thursday, August 7, 2008

And Again, To Penang.

When I arrived Juru, I called my mum .. and guess what?

Like a few weeks ago, she wasn't even on the island, again.

So I had to pay for taxi, again.

And you know how ridiculously expensive taxis are..

Family ar? Kiss my fat ass woiiiiii. hohoho

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


When I saw a +65___________________ ringing on my phone.

I knew it was you.

You're missed.

Lady Luck.

I went to college today, paid for my fees, checked on when I should be present on next Tuesday for my semester briefing.

And then I decided to check for my results.

Taxation - B (where I was 50 minutes late, and was the 1st to finish and made it out from the exam hall..)
Financial Accounting 1 - B ( .... )
Management Accounting 1 - C (woo hoo!)
Finance & Banking - C+ (The subject I didn't study for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Next semester should be interesting. I wonder how well will I do .. hohoho.

Away From Work, And..

.. To the land of La Marzoccos once again! Hurhurhurhurhurhur.


Survey 050808

1) The phone rings, what is your ring tone?
Depends who calls. Mostly it's that ragtime solo from Dream Theater's song, The Dance of Eternity.

2) Who is your last text from?

3) Who was the hottest person you talked today?
Probably some customer?

4) Favorite alcoholic drink?
Don't drink.

5) Does the person you like know that you like them?

6) Last time you talked to your mum?
Over the dinner table.

7) Where are you right now?
At home in Damansara.

8) If you HAD to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
No. I might get her sick.. :(

9) Favorite gadget in the kitchen?
The gas tank.

10) Favorite pie?
Hmmm ... XD

11) How is your hair?
Stupid looking.

12) Any complaints?

18) Who's the 1st person on your missed calls list?

19) What did the last text message you received say?
Something about when am I going to get my fever.

21) Story behind your Friendster song?
About how music can be a form of art.

22) Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
No. Can't be bothered.

Describe your:
23) Wallet?
Some leather wallet from Prangin Mall ..

24) Eyes?
Not so red like Fery's.

25) Life?
Is extremely interesting.

26) Doing this weekend to come?

27) Wearing?
Boxers and shirt.

28) Wanting?
More $$$

29) Listening to?
Dream Theater - A Change of Seasons.

30) What do you smell?

31) Do you sleep naked?

32) Do you like seafood?
Anything's that edible.

33) Do you remember your dreams?

34) Do you consider yourself a study freak?

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

A Tribute To..

Just about 4 months ago, my application form was reviewed by a man with his shiny head. He looked like a natural Mafia gangster and always liked odd stuff.

But then again, it all wouldn't have been possible if my current Store Manager were to give me my first interview; accepted me, and so on.

Not to say that I'm entirely reliable or am I a good barista on the floor, but when I'm offered a job schedule that I am able to work and commit to, I will perform my duties on the floor.

I always thought that he was strict, and he always handled the schedule for the partners in our store, and I see him on duty most of the nights I've worked. Mostly 5 out of 6 times.

It's been fun working with him, because he's one of those people who knows when to fool around, and when to really work. And when he works, it's all about procedures, efficiency, knowledge and timing.

Never judge a book by its cover.

I'm glad to be under a supervisor like him, although he tosses the work to the baristas on the floor, but then again, if he were to help us more than we'd expect, we won't even learn what are the things to be done, and how they should be done properly.

He does monitor us, and does show us what are the procedures, and makes sure that we do it right.

Anyways, he will resign as a Shift Supervisor effective soon, and will end his service with Starbucks after 4 (or 5) years of mind boggling games about inventory stock, reports and customer service. But he shall continue his service in Starbucks as a Part-Time Barista.

Which is kind of ironic, but there are some people who are like that.

And he's totally different from others. Insanely different.. hohoho.

Despite whatever others say about him, he's able to train baristas to perform their duties the proper way - only if you're willing to learn.

He shall resign from his post due to a better offer from an IT company.

I wish Fery Ichsan all the best in his future and undergoing career. I wonder how are the managers going to handle him when he's on the floor. Hohoho.

Strange Deja Vu.

I just can't help myself;
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head...

Just Another Day.

Although I'm in KL, after work, I managed to hang out with my friends from Penang.

Of all places to meet up, but whatever it is, we transferred from PG to KL for education purposes.

Boo hoo.

It was a good meeting. Hohoho.

Tomorrow will be kind of odd. Because I'll be having some minor family dinner with my parents, aunts and uncle for some pre-birthday celebration.

Will be working from 12 to 7pm tomorrow. lalalala.



Monday, August 4, 2008

[Poem] Chances for Wishes.

Something I stumbled upon. Was written back in 2005..

Hey yo.
Some stories, they end well, but some they end up in flames?
Listen to this, and see who takes the blame.
'Cause I don't even know myself.
Just listen.

Verse 1
If I had the chance, would you come back to me?
And patch things together, so we would be what we used to be.
Everytime I try, I get hurt in the end,
When I put things together, and when it never blends.
If I had the chance, I would always turn around,
Notice when something's wrong, notice when you're down.
So I can try and make things right, through just one starry night,
Instead of leaving you alone, surrounded by grand lies.
If I had the chance, I would turn back time,
And study everything we did, and noticed the crimes,
The fight and mistakes, the reason our love was wrong,
And everything else that caused our love to crumble; and then gone.
If I had the chance, I would change myself,
and everything else, that would make things go well.
And to achieve this chance, I would gladly sacrifice,
As long as it brings happiness, and not tears to my eyes.

You know that's what I would do, if I had chances.
But what about wishes..? Hmmm..

Verse 2
If I had a wish, would things be the same?
Would love be how it was, how we'd usually claim?
Or would things be in vain, or would our love be tamed?
Will all this feelings be released, or fully retained?
If I had a wish, would my dreams be it?
Having you in them, knowing they wouldn't be a trick.
In every single dream, would everything be a treat?
Or would it bring sadness? And our freedom? A constrict.
If I had a wish, without a doubt I'd wish for you;
Where you'd wipe tears, and urge me on away from gloom.
But that's not what you want, I'll be the sadness in your life
If my wish came true; your nights? (Spent in silent cries).
If I had a wish, I would vanquish in a swish,
So somewhere far away; and myself I'd vanish.
To a land of no tears, no fears, no lies and no despise,
With death implanted in me, and soon; I'll just die.

Hey yo, that's all I gotta say.
And until today, I don't even know what went wrong.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
All this things that we feel? Maybe it's just a blessing in disguise.
Well,I don't know.
Maybe I'll find out soon enough.
Hey yo, just listen.

Verse 3
If I wished for a chance, I'd hide everything I'd knew,
So nobody would see my thoughts, my senses and have no clue,
Would the chances be my desire? To notice what went wrong?
Or just to leave it as it is, since it's been fated all along.
If I had a chance for a wish, would killing myself be the answer?
Would everything be forgotten? Or would memories be a blur?
Losing my heart, and breaking it into a thousand pieces,
Or believing in the lies been told, and this treason.
The next step is hard, when my mind's indecisive,
When life's so hard, and when happiness is priceless.
Even harder, when what you believe is deceiving,
I just want a chance to wish; to be neutral to everything.
Now I have to pull myself and keep on moving on,
Cause I can never stay down for my time's never long.
You can never know, when time slows down like a curse.
And that's when I want a chance to wish; for the wishes for chances.

Cracking My Neck.

I don't see the point of some people thinking too much about the past. And thinking too much about the future. In the end, they end up worrying about their past, or future, and pissing in their pants about what they should really do. At the end of the day; who's going to do what, and when are they going to begin on their plans to succeed in their lives?

I think it's plain shit if you tend to think, piss and worry about what you have in mind ambitiously, but you're not even going to start anytime soon.

Get over it, and just fuckin' move on la.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

The New Phrase.

The 2nd part of the Summer Phrase commenced on the 22nd of July, but here's a shift that'll suit its theme, and I finally have it!!!


Of course, the front's odd, but I got sexually excited when I saw the back.

It's simple, and it's a schedule of what to do on the day itself and all.

And it's white! Finally, I've got a white shirt (I think I got bored with the usual black uniform.. Since the apron's already dark green, might as well make it look funky in a way?)


And for no random reason, I like the below picture..Credits to gajah boolat for the picture..hoho.


I was looking forward to studying humanising drums programming, until I opened my FXPansion BFD 8bk.

Unfortunately, the installation file has a problem.

So I can't install it.


What a week...

And this DVD costed me 16gbs of patient waitings.................................. cock.

The New Month.

It's August, and you know what that means for many Malaysians. Our national independence day falls on the 31st of August this month.

Which is a public holiday for all of us.

But you know what?

After working in Starbucks, the last day of the month is usually the most busiest day, depending on which day, and mainly because it's due to stock inventory checkings.

We did have out End Of Month reports on busy weekends before, and that was rather insane. But for this month, it's going to be one of the most happening celebrations around Mutiara Damansara area. And we're going to be opened to 2am (like last year, I heard?)


It's going to be one helluva night, and I'm looking forward to the partners I'm working with, and of the night we're going to stay up with the managers to check on the whole store.


How fun. Hohoho

I'm still alive and kicking, by the way. But somewhat nearly dead because of the odd schedule I've been having. Hohoho. Tomorrow, it's closing for me. Wheee.