Sunday, February 15, 2009

Valentine's Day - When Night Falls.

The title itself describes how dark and unfaithful something can get after a series of unfortunate events.

But today, I managed to smile twice even if they were to be both good and bad news.

I think I have a few more life philisophies to jot down into my brain to make me go on.

One person told me that she cannot get into a relationship too soon because she has to further her studies abroad. Then again, on any other normal days, it could mean anything. On Valentine's Day, where people shouldn't take it for granted by celebrating it with their loved ones by just saying, "Happy Valentine's Day and I love you till the end of time, baby", they should reflect on what their mistakes were to stir up ridiculous arguements, and to think what's right for them, to move on with or without the other partner.

That, or to reassure that they will work harder to patch things up.

Friends, I have to admit that this year, was a lonely year for me. And the only thing I can't stand is to watch others in tears whenever they have problems with their partners on this day. Special or not, I can't care less. It's Saturday, 14th of February. For all I care, I have 2 friends celebrating their birthdays, and that's an event.

Tomorrow's Sunday, 15th of February, and my ex-store manager is celebrating her wedding anniversary. 13 years, if I'm not mistaken.

Valentine's Day? I don't shed my tears on this day, even if I don't have anybody to spend. I'm still human, I still long for the touch, warmth of the hug, the pleasant kisses, and the power of love. But this year, I had to put that aside, and face the fact that I have nobody but myself.

So I decided to celebrate the alter-ego of Valentine's Day; which is Friendship week, according to non-Valentine believers?

I, on the third and other invisible hand, couldn't be bothered with this mumbo-jumbo friendship week either. Because most of us are going to say, I appreciate you as a friend, but tomorrow, you step on my toe and blowtorch my nipples, and I'm going to hate you for the rest of my life.

My friend told me once. Her name is Jennifer Joo. She always told me that I had this other talent (besides music) to bring a smile to the face of others.

And just last night, I was chatting with a friend of mine; a close one, that I write with my heart.

It's the things we speak through our hearts, instead of our minds, that brings a smile to the faces of others.

For tonight, I wouldn't consider it an achievement, or accomplishment, but I managed to make someone feel like she had the "best Valentine's ever". I never expected myself to celebrate Valentine's because I was to bummed up with work, studies and assignments. I didn't do much, but remember the saying.

You may be one person to the world, but to one person; you are the world.

This friend of mine is a strong girl. She doesn't admit it, but I speak on her behalf. She had slaved her butt off, just to open her eyes to another day, without worrying about problems that might be worse. Throughout my whole experience in this stay in KL, I have learnt a lot from her. She also made me realise how beautiful a relationship may get too. But the problem is, she's been giving, and giving..and giving...and giving..and giving..and givvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv...

.. Sorry, I fell asleep on the "V" key on the keyboard.

She never got anything back in return. Even if she did, but it's not enough.

As a friend, I stand by her, with the amount of sorries she said, I didn't accept her apology because there was nothing to apologise about.

Everybody needs someone to be there. Who, is the question, depending on the situation.

She tries to be strong.

She is strong.

Just that I, as a friend, decided stay right behind her, and to push her to be stronger even if she didn't want it.

That is my Valentine's story. Probably the most beautiful one I have to story tell throughout my whole life, as I never really celebrated Valentine's Day. I didn't celebrate it, but Valentine's Day is to share the love with those around you, and ensuring they smile.

It's hard to watch others cry; but it's harder to watch others cry, and make them smile.

Dudes and dudettes, just because we're good friends, doesn't mean we're good boy/girlfriends.

And I learnt this from someone a few months back. Look out of the window when the evening falls. Do you see the moon the same way your partner sees it?

Know that you're united by it regardless the distance.

Happy Valentine's Day, all of you.


maefurriel said...

dear kinks,
this post made ME smile. I have to admit - your Valentine's story inspired me immensely and convinced me to look on the brighter (other?) side of things. In this world we live in our thoughts tend to get caught up and standardized into the superficial. All I could think about today is how miserable my life is and how unfair that the traffic jam is so bad cause everybody's out enjoying their arse off. And it's thanks to you that I could look over what I thought was the horizons again. Me larvyuu long time!

QuirkyLilPrincess said...

this post made me smile and made me sad as well esspecially the part where your fren kept giving and getting almost nothing in return.that makes one feel as though wateva they do will never be enough.valentine's is a lil too overrated and the other 364 days must be appreciated as well.