Losing Faith.

I've always been negative, constantly depressed, and now, I feel like absolute shit.

There is no other method or words that can describe what I really feel these days when it comes to life.

Face it, even I'm beginning to piss myself off on the guitar, my studies suck like hell, and I'm not even good at work.

I don't know where my standards are at.

And if any one of you are even idolizing, or feeling that this post is completely wrong, you need to change your mindset.

I had enough of myself.

I cant face my finals in this condition. It's just bloody wrong.

Bah!

Finally.

Last semester of the year is about to end.

And surprisingly, I am extremely calm. I'm not afraid of whatever it is that the finals will toss to me. But one things for sure.

I need to pass with at least 25-27% to know that I'm in the safe zone in passing this whole unit. My internal for this subject would be 26.08%

Wooboy.

This is going to be nice.

Especially when I am still under probation, I hope everything goes well, and lift off the probation period.

I need to set my next semester's subjects as well, come to think of it. LOL.

Oh..Yeah.

And that's the reason why I study better. I've got more space, my guitar pedals are right below me, and my figures have more than enough space. Gotta clear up my table a bit more though.. So I can have my planned World War theme that should be done by the end of November 2010.. :)

Again, With The Updates.

Here's my schedule for these few days:

22th Oct - Work at the newsagent.. 7am - 12pm-ish.
23th Oct - Financial Management finals - from 1pm - 4pm
24th Oct - Work at the fresh fruit market.. 10am - 3pm
25th Oct - Work at both the newsagent and the fresh fruit market - 7am - 11am shift, 12pm - 7 or 8pm shift, followed by preparations for studies in Commercial Transactions.
26th Oct - Work at the newsagent.. 7am until unknown, then followed by preparations for Commercial Transactions
27th Oct - Offday from the fresh fruit market, but Commercial Transaction finals, followed by Principles of Finance preparations.
28th Oct - Work at the newsagent from 7am until unknown, then followed by preparations for Principles of Finance.
29th Oct - Principles of Finance finals.
30th Oct - Plans unconfirmed
31st Oct - 10am - 3pm shift .. and rock my balls off with the guitar until next February.

Now that I wrote all that out, I think I should lay off the idea of working and studying at the same time.

Then again, not.

I'll be able to do this.

I believe in myself.











Besides that, I had a straight 2-day birthday celebration. I had work yesterday, then I treated my brother and my housemates and a friend to dinner out of sheer randomness. Then followed by lunch today .. where my housemates bought lunch for me.. And this friend of mine.. bought a $50 iTunes Gift Card as a present, and then my other housemates bought a cake and dinner for me, so that's cool.

But the iTunes Gift Card was the worst present I ever thought to give to someone else. And this time, I was being offered the ..present.

I mean. $50 on the iTunes Store. What the hell is there to buy?? We can always torrent and download whatever junk we're interested in.. Until..

.. I remembered that Victor Wooten's album - Soul Circus and Yin Yang was not available for purchase in JB Hi-Fi or torrents.

So I got the two rarest album for myself. And months back, I remember updating my status saying that if anybody wanted to get me a birthday present - that would be those two albums.

.. I guess I should really be careful for what I wish for, eh?

I haven't gotten the time to review those albums yet, but from the previews, it's different - and definitely better than Palmystery.

I am looking forward to my break.











And I am looking forward to go back to Malaysia as well. That should be my long-awaited vacation.. Boy, am I stressed out.. bah..!

Birthday 2010

Only 4 people celebrated with me, a 100++ people posted on my wall, and a few texts got through to me.

Thank you for making this a very unique birthday experience, although it felt like another day for me as I had work, dinner and now I'm going to study.

I appreciate everything that all of you did, and more to come. The comments and posts were fabulous!

Thank you all!

I will update again whenever I have the time. My first paper is on this coming Saturday, so if you haven't wished me yet, just wish me luck and that's just good enough!

.. And Another One.

This is what I got for my birthday, originally:

Just simple decorations of the guitars that I'd never own in my life .. Because they're either limited edition, or just bloody rare. The one on the left, the rose pedal Ibanez JEM, would that the designs were printed off from Steve Vai's parent's curtains from their home (!!!), and his triple neck guitar. Just that I didn't like the idea that they added frets to the neck on the far right. IT's supposed to be a fretless guitar, but whatever! Decoration purposes! A good icon to celebrate my 22nd birthday!

Then, my recent eBay fever (again). Scoped around for random figures, and saw this one on.. 'sale'. It's a buy-one-free-one sort of a deal. I've got the Walmart Masterpiece Skywarp, but I couldn't be bothered with opening it.

This, is MP-08. Takara Masterpiece - Grimlock.

OH yeah. <3






I was a bit lazy to take more pictures, so this will have to do.

I know I'm damn happy, and I need a bigger table.

Musclebrain.

Ever felt like you are somewhat awake, but you refuse to learn anything new?

You know you can go on physically, but mentally, you perform worse than a chimpanzee.

What have I done to deserve this?

I hate being optimistic.

Well, that's enough of complaints. Go into war with my final quiz. Then exactly one week to go through 12 weeks of shit, then finals.

Woopee-fucking-do.


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